Go On, Cry Wolf.

Relationships, to me, are like swinging doors. It's open, or it's closed, and you get very little in between. If you happen to get caught in between in those few seconds as the door retreats to its frame, at an inopportune time, you just might find yourself with a few bruised fingers.

I'm open or I'm closed. Making new friends is terrifying. It takes a while to pry me open, and there's a very slim window for when a person can come in. But when do I let you in, then you get the full force of exactly who I am--love it or hate it, I 'll give you my all. Luckily, I find that most people who bothered to break down my strange exterior, love who they meet on the other side--even with the craziness and moodiness that come with. And I wish they knew just how much I appreciate that. So apart from them, I'm closed to everyone else. I put on a smile and I'll act really nice, but mostly because I like to be polite. Don't get me wrong, I don't dislike them either. The bother is I'm never truly comfortable with them, ergo, I'm never completely myself.

Then there's those who I've already let in, and yet, they chose to pry from the inside, out. It takes a while for those doors to budge because once I care about someone, I don't let go of them easily. But if they force themselves out, and the door closes behind them-- it stays shut.


I had a lot more to say, but realized that it's pointless to go through the trouble.

Cheers!

-jejecola-

Gold and Silver

New friends are silver, old friends are gold

GOLD

Rexford Louie Jake
Tecson To Chip

Look up in the sky! It's a plane!

No, it's on that tree! It's a bird!

Hang on, perhaps a monkey?

(I'd say that's a pretty close bet!)

It's my very best friend-- Rex! :)

How long has it been? I remember the shy and quiet boy from grade five who I'd see in the hallways. Sometimes play dodge ball together, but never said a word to each other. So, for a while, I had no idea how wrong I was about you!

Shy and quiet?

oh please! More like, that mouth needs to a cow shoved down there so deep---oh wait! you've already got that covered! :P

Seriously though, I thought the best way for me to greet you a HAPPY BIRTHDAY was to dedicate this blog to you. A whole chunk of space (way more than you deserve) just for you!

OKAY! Seriously, seriously.

Awwwe Rex! I can't believe it's been so long. We've probably had a million wonderful moments together, had a million great conversation and a BILLION stupid ones. We have probably shared a million secrets with each other (and insulted a million people, or maybe just one person a million times ;) HAHA!)

My point is, we've been through so much together. There's really no date set in stone as to when I woke up and realized, "hey, he's my best friend." But I'm glad that one day I woke up and I realized I could tell you anything. I found out that I could share my most private thoughts without being judged. I had someone to share a ridiculous humor no one else understood. I had a shoulder to cry on (because you weren't one for giving hugs, that's okay though, Jan and Dan were plenty hugs!). I could be silly and I'd have someone to laugh with. I could be serious and have someone give me advice. After a bad day, I'd just go through the dozens of texts you send me (the one's I don't always reply to, Sorry :P ) and I find a reason to laugh. You make a bad day without even trying. And for all those reasons, and for so many more, thanks a bunch :D

Each year as we get older, I have one more full year to be thankful for. That even though, we're not always together, the bond hasn't diminished in the slightest. Not one awkward silence. Not one *cricket cricket* moment. Not a instance where I doubted if you'd still stick around when we're older.

I wish you were just in the next hall. I wish I could tell you every silly thing that crosses my mind. I wish I could chikka you the moment something came up. But since that's really hard to do, I'll have to settle for the rare laags we have that always seem to be better than the last one.

I don't care if we celebrate your birthday in freaking July! we're celebrating no matter what.

Since I only get to do this on special occasions few times a year while reserving the right to demand that you say it back, I'm happy to remind you that:

I LOVE YOU, REXFORD!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

SILVER

James Verniel R. Novo

How have I found favor in the eyes of Mr. Perfect? haha. :P

Pwede mu luhod? Kissan nato ang tiil beh! :P

<-- EEEP! Super gwapo hair! haha






I think making friends is one of the hardest things to do in the world. If I don't know someone, I'm usually just introverted and quiet. I know, hard to believe, right?

That's because it wasn't so hard with you, James. And that's what I love about you. I love how easy it was for me to become comfortable around you and how easy it was for me to go nuts and start acting like myself.

You are everyone's friend. I notice how many people are fond you. Oh well guess what?

I claim bragging rights to Mr. James Novo!

I'd like to think you're in OUR group and the other people are just outside friend. LOL. I hope you feel the same way :P

Really James, It amazes me how close we became in such a short span of time. (Even though you don't love us as much as we love you! Kidding!) You're super easy to talk to and you always care to ask about what's wrong. I already told you I have a soft spot for you right? It's like this automatic impulse to make sure you're okay or something. I'm not really sure where it came from, but it's just there! I hate the thought you being sad (CHAR! haha) or the possibility that you got your heartbroken. I worry about you! So don't get yourself into any trouble :P

Remember that we're always here for you,okay?

Don't even second guess whether you're one of us or nor, because you are.

Oh! and one more thing! Buck up! You have so much going for you, but you want so little for yourself. (it's true, noh?!) You could be so much more amazing, James. All you need is that push right? Well we're going to be here to push you.

BE THE BEST BIMBY YOU CAN BE! haha

Even though it isn't reciprocated:

I LOVE YOU, JAAMEEETH!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Some people come into your life to stay for good, some merely make an appearance

I sure do hope you're both here to stay :)

This was the only way I knew how to make you know that you two are special to me, hope you enjoyed reading that

Cheers!

-jejecola-

Here's To The Past...

for it gave me this present.

7 Dwarves. That's what we called ourselves.

Once upon a time we were just a bunch of oblivious freshmen just trying to fit in. And for a while, a good long while, 'the 7 dwarves' was a place we could feel at home in a world that was completely new to us.It felt wonderful to have people to doubt with, people to be scared with, people to laugh with, people to go crazy with.

And I think of what used to be fondly.

It's amazing how much can change in a year. For better or for worse, I guess I can't say for sure. We're all still friends, but there's no denying the rifts that have formed among us. To us who know how the stories go, I need not recount the pain. For those who don't, all I can say is this: Sometimes people just grow apart.

Today, I think was the first time that original group sat in the same table for the same purpose. We are all different people now. The familiarity is something I've certainly missed, but there's just no turning back time.

Sometimes, I really wish I could though.

Because truth be told, I miss you.

I can't say it was all bad though because after all, I ended up with this bunch:



They're my new comfort zone.

Funny thing too, because if you had asked me a year ago, I'd have least expected those two to manage to seep their way into my heart. Heck! I didn't know that the other one even existed!

Then again, who's to say that in another year's time, this won't just be another old photograph. How can I be certain that it won't be merely a memory of people I used to call my best friends. There's no telling what life will bring.

But one thing's for sure--

I'm holding on for dear life and I'm not letting them go without a fight.

Cheers!

-jejecola-