Inspried by one dark night

What I Forget
By: Jessamine Cola

This old house, it hums a silence
Tis still beneath the darkened sky
Not a squeak, nor shuffling of feet
But awake in my bed, I lie.

My chest it rises and it falls
Breathe louder to pierce the quiet
“Twas but a dream,” I tell myself
But a part of me won’t buy it

Unaware as my eyelids slip
That’s when I plummet back to sleep
It’s only there, can they grab hold—
Those buried skeletons I keep

Panting as I’m startled awake
Take a moment to catch my breath
A chill up my spine, I tug on the sheets
To find they’re dampened with cold sweat

Turn to the right, turn to the left
Curl like a ball, but nothing will help
Now flat on my back, my eyes then find
The picture of His face divine

I then sit up and bite my lip
It slipped my mind again
The probing twinge of guilt acts fast
Roll out of bed, I clasp my hands

My knees against the wooden floor
I bow my head. Voice hushed, I say
“I know it’s no excuse, my God
But Lord, I had a busy day.”

I talk, He listens. He listens well
I hear Him only in the quiet
Amazing how, a few words exchanged
Can cause this troubled soul to brighten

There’s one sweet slumber that awaits
A final thought before I drift away
The trick to nightmares is simply this—
I don’t forget to pray

How A Bad Day Ends - Poem

Today was terrible. And as I react to every bad day, I become a thoughtless, cranky mad man. You'll see how angry I become. You'll see how easily I lose hope. How easily I crumble to depression. The part of the poem that's full of angst, I wrote on the walk home. After I let off some steam, I get home regaining a bit of common sense. I couldn't very well let all that angry poetry go to waste,so I decided to write back to my angry self. You'll see the shift in my mood. And how uncharacteristically optimistic I become.( I swear, I'm bipolar!) And this is usually what happens when I've cooled down. I hope you enjoy it. :)

How A Bad Day Ends
By: Jessamine Cola

If I now I just stopped breathing
I’m going straight to hell
And this world will soon follow
As far as I can tell

I don’t believe in friendship
Nor in good and honest work
Love is only actual,
When it comes with mundane perks

I’ve been stripped of my morals
I’ve come to learn to hate
My body’s slowly dying
My ethereal soul mutates

My life has lost all meaning
My God has been replaced
By guises of the devil
Yet I run to them in haste

Time will wait for no one
And certainly not for me
My future’s morphing into
One colossal tragedy

I bear not the ability
To create change in my routine
The extent of my efforts
Is but a muffled scream

Eyes closed, I dive backwards
And free fall into spite
Of everything I’m doing wrong
And inability to make them right

I’m lacking in courage
I’m lacking in strength
To deny my apathy
And make concrete my intents

I live in my daydreams
For my real life, I can’t stand
If only wishes did come true
You had life at your command

But life isn’t just a slab of clay
You mould to your delight
It is the foolish man who makes
A mountain for every hill in sight

Don’t dare talk of injustice
For justice has been paid
Unless the justice that you seek
Is in a passing grade

Your faults are yours and no one else’s
So lower your pointed finger
Get mad, and shout, and swear if must
Then let no bad feeling linger

You can rant all day about people you hate
of the things you must do that you despise
But that only means, you must slave the night
For Ra’s chariot will soon cross the skies

Leave your frustrations at the tip of your pen
And drown them in the blackness of ink
Today will be one of many bad days
But good days number far more than you think

Look back when you’re older
Look back when you’re wise
Look back when you’ve found
Courage and strength in your stride

The clumsiness of your youth
Will be a thing of the past
But it’s no easy road
Get your act together, fast!

I wish you well, friend
That tomorrow will bring
A day that falls under “good”
One with a smile to share and a song to sing
So perhaps you’ll write of brighter things :)


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Cheers!

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Poem :)

Forgive me for the title, for title's i cannot make. It's worse than my shallow poetry but nothing like my prose ;)

The Modern Meaning of Love
By: Jessamine Cola

Were love and friendship fleeting
Were romance tied with lust
Were lovers unbelieving
Then I should leave, I must

Were soul mates only fiction
Were courtship but a game
Were sex just an addiction
Then I should go insane

Did true love only triumph
And lovers learned to wait
Did vows retain their meaning
And trust was no debate

Had hearts been saved from breaking
Had promises been kept
“I love you,” not a saying
But meant with profound depth

I simply cannot swallow
What love has now become
We’re walking shells so hollow
I cannot stay, I’ll run

But there are those exceptions
That stop me in my step
Give hope to a revival
And take a chance , instead

This world may not be perfect
This world may be perverse
But somewhere in the hearts of men
Love was planted first

Before it was corrupted
Before its meaning bent
There was a time, it triumphed,
Perhaps, it will again